Incontinence

Most people, with the exception of scat fetishists, don't think about their bowel or bladder functions unless they get a kidney infection or are constipated or something. People like me who have Spinal Cord Injuries live in another world altogether. I've been adjusting to the fact that I've become increasingly incontinent over the last year. I used to be able to hold enough urine to create a stream that lasts 30 seconds; now I'm lucky to get to 10 without wetting myself. I also was prescribed a bowel program by my Physical Medicine and Rehabilitation doctor which involves a rectally inserted suppository to flush out my bowels every night. I haven't been sticking to that program and have had occasional bowel accidents. You get to know your shit on a whole new level if you're incontinent. It sticks to everything and stinks. My parents have been cleaning up after me and it makes me feel guilty when they get involved. l now wear protective disposable undergarments which can usually keep the shit from seeping into the pants. Nobody can imagine the anger repressed when the body is violated this way. They say people with disabilities are so bitter. I dare anyone to have a smiling countenance when their pants are full of wet foaming poo.